Year in Review

How do you asses your year.  I think it would be bested stated by saying i am the same place i was last year at this time, KINDA.  The most prevailing thoughts in my head is still Kehsia,Wenzel and finance, non of which i have been able to get a hold on.  My finances are somewhat improved but still not where i would like to have them and still a burden.  

Well wenzel is just a burden that i have been dealing with for the past 3 years.  I would like to say there is something about her and what she adds to my life that i could hang the vested time, energy and thought in but i just can't find any, accept some twist devotion of love.  There is some glimmer of hope as we haven't spoken in almost a month and as much as i wish to hear her voice once again and know she is doing as messier able as i am , i thing it better to embrace this as the end.  Shame truthfully cause i have dedicated some much time, love and pain to being with this woman.

 Kehsia, no amount of words will summarize the breadth, depth or girth that i have to endure with this woman.  This tumultuous relationship we have is the bane of my existence. I CAN DO NO MORE.  For the sake of my son and some false committment to hear i endure but i say to you on this the last day of 2014 NO MORE...

Then there is the finances, the one bright spot of the year.  I was able to make considerable progress in the direction of getting closer to and end. With only about $3000 left i am proud of the strides that i make.

My treasure

i had no map to lost jewel
i sail not upon the 7 seas

i have trek no great beyond

yet i wake up each morning knowing i have found a treasure

in you